But God!

But God, being rich in mercy, because of His great love for us, even when we were dead in our transgressions, made us alive together with Christ – by grace you have been saved. Ephesians 2:4-5

“But God” – I love that phrase. Two words that hold such great power and promise.

I am unlovable, but God loves me. (John 3:16)

I am unlovely, but God thinks I’m beautiful. (Psalm 139:14)

I am broken, but God came to heal the brokenhearted. (Isaiah 61:1)

I am unforgivable, but God has the power to forgive and forget. (Psalm 103:12)

I am tired, but God has the strength to carry me through. (Isaiah 40:29-31)

I am afraid, but God will protect me. (Psalm 27:1)

But God – when I look at my circumstances, my challenges I get overwhelmed. My empty bank account tells me that I can’t pay my bills, but God will supply all my needs (Philippians 4:19). My overwhelming debt makes me feel inadequate, silly, frightened of how I’ll pay it all, but God tells me to trust in Him in all ways, in all my life and He will show me how to get through (Proverbs 3:5-6). My failures loom overhead always reminding me of my inadequacy, but God has wiped away my past and made me a new woman (Ephesians 2:10).

This has been a rough year for us, but it also has been one of great promise. Circumstances are changing for the better, but the biggest change has been in my attitude. For too long I’ve let my circumstances dictate my attitude, my joy, my hope. So I asked myself the clichéd Dr. Phil question – How’s that working for ya? – and could easily say not so well. I’ve tried it my way for too long, so I began surrendering things in my life to God…little by little. And the heaviness of my burdens began to lift. Circumstances didn’t change, but I did. And so I gave God more and more of my life until I laid it all down at the cross asking Him to carry the burdens for me. Yes I still try to control things, but then I get that uneasy feeling and I don’t like it, because now I know what peace feels like. I’ve experienced joy unrelated to the craziness of life, I’ve laughed in spite of my problems, I’ve released my concerns to God in prayer instead of spending hours worrying about them. And I like it!

So when something comes into my life that I could worry about, that makes me want to cry, that threatens to make my blood boil, I think I can’t do this, but God can!